so that he was forced to admit things he did not in the least
believe。 And having admitted them； he did not know whether he
believed them or not； he rather thought he did。
But he loved anyone who could convey enlightenment to him
through feeling。 He sat betrayed with emotion when the teacher
of literature read； in a moving fashion； Tennyson's 〃Ulysses〃；
or Shelley's 〃Ode to the West Wind〃。 His lips parted； his eyes
filled with a strained； almost suffering light。 And the teacher
read on； fired by his power over the boy。 Tom Brangwen was moved
by this experience beyond all calculation； he almost dreaded it；
it was so deep。 But when； almost secretly and shamefully； he
came to take the book himself； and began the words 〃Oh wild west
wind； thou breath of autumn's being；〃 the very fact of the print
caused a prickly sensation of repulsion to go over his skin； the
blood came to his face； his heart filled with a bursting passion
of rage and inpetence。 He threw the book down and walked over
it and went out to the cricket field。 And he hated books as if
they were his enemies。 He hated them worse than ever he hated
any person。
He could not voluntarily control his attention。 His mind had
no fixed habits to go by； he had nothing to get hold of； nowhere
to start from。 For him there was nothing palpable； nothing known
in himself； that h